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An Appointment with Myself

Posted by: redlove on: November 6, 2009

The day of the first snow of a year,   

What do you want to do?

For me,  it’s the day to meet the one I love.

This  year that’s an appointment I want to make with myself, to be true to myself on that day.

That might not be a wise thing, but that is what I wish I can do.

Just for once.

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Another Gloomy Day

Posted by: redlove on: November 2, 2009

I don’t know why everything seems to go astray these days, and today is another such a day.

In the morning, I got a ticket for not stopping at a stop sign. I was running late for school, because the friend of my roommate who was supposed to ask me to send her to the bus station made all of us late. I was really irritated. I droved really fast and then was stopped by a policeman.

Later in the afternoon when I heard from some of my Russian students that their friends had very serious car accident and they were in the hospital in very very bad conditions, I realized that how lucky it was for me to just get a ticket this morning, otherwise, I might really make some kind of accident happen.

However, it didn’t make today a little easy to go, becaues when I came back to my car to drive home, I met another car accident on the road and when I was detoured to another road and needed GPS to find my way home, I found that my GPS was stolen. The thief was so professional that he didn’t even forget to take the wire away with GPS.

Today what really makes me gloomy actually is not at all this bad luck. Actually as someone in “Crash” said,
“I am always angry and I don’t know why.”

However, I know what is the source of my anger, but I just don’t know what I should do to it.

What I know is I should have a new start, but I just cannot let bygone be bygone. I am angry about myself.

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Procrastination

Posted by: redlove on: October 27, 2009

To procrastinate, to put off intentionally and habitually.

I am procrastinating more and more things, not intentionally, but habitually.

I remember Ellen DeGeneres once called forth people to procrastinate, since people of modern time are rushing into so many things at the same time that they don’t enjoy any of them.

For me, I might be the best supporter of her call. And I find I don’t feel that good about it.

“If it weren’t for the last minute, I wouldn’t get anything done.” I hate to admit it, but I really …

The worst thing is for those things which don’t have any last minute, they have to wait forever and finally leave undone.

And for others which I don’t know how to do, I leave them there, forever, again.

However, those unsolved problems don’t stay there still, but keep bothering me, annoying me, and torturing me.

They make me uneasy.

Actually, procrastination harasses me, all the time, like the ants biting my flesh.


 

Peaceful Life

Posted by: redlove on: September 28, 2009

meditation YogaNever know that I can have such a peaceful life. In a peaceful neighborhood. Enjoying peaceful beach, park, tennis court, and yoga.

I started Yoga, more for pain than for fun.

I started playing tennis, for fun.

I started a life of a retired man, peace both inside and outside.

I don’t know for how long I will enjoy it, but at least for now simple is the best.

School, home, home, school. Cooking, eating, reading, writing. That’s all I do at home.

I am getting closer to my birthday, again. It might be another peaceful time I spend alone, or with Ellen, this time.

I find to love or to hate, to forgive or to revenge, are all too difficult. Resuming to peace, doing nothing, and letting time flow are the easiest way.

Therefore, I choose peaceful life. Leave me to myself.

ONLY.

Love one another, but let each one of you be alone

Posted by: redlove on: August 10, 2009

Love One Another ~ Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet (1883-1931)

 

 

 

 Love one another, but make not a bond of love
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.

Fill each other’s cup, but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread, but eat not from the same loaf.

Sing and dance together and be joyous,
but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone
though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping;
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.

And stand together yet not too near together;
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other’s shadow.

 (Full PDF)

“Love one another, … but let each one of you be alone.” This can keep longevity of love, and it is the pillar of the construction of love.

I was always wondering that whether I have been too tough by keeping myself in love or any other relationship, and reluctant to compromise in the case when I am confident I am on the right side. Now I won’t doubt about it any more because I am supported by others, too.

If I know my love is doing wrong, I won’t follow or support him, even at the cost of losing love, because I am aware that if I lose myself, love will be rootless and withering eventually.

However, as Sarah Brightman sings, “Love Changes Everything”,  (Lyrics), how can I change without losing myself?

And here is Kahlil Gibran’s The Prophet on Love

Then said Almitra, “Speak to us of Love.”

And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them.

And with a great voice he said:

When love beckons to you follow him,

Though his ways are hard and steep.

And when his wings enfold you yield to him,

Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.

And when he speaks to you believe in him,

Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.

Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,

So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.

He threshes you to make you naked.

He sifts you to free you from your husks.

He grinds you to whiteness.

He kneads you until you are pliant;

And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God’s sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life’s heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love’s peace and love’s pleasure,

Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love’s threshing-floor,

Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.

Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.

Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;

For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, “God is in my heart,” but rather, I am in the heart of God.”

And think not you can direct the course of love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.

But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love’s ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

卡里· 纪伯伦的《先知》,中文全文 (http://www.osho.tw/ebook/book4_00.htm

Kahlil Gibran’s The Prophet (http://leb.net/gibran/)

The book “Tae Kwon Do: My life and Philosophy”, written by TKD grand master and ninth-degree black belt Yeon Hwan Park, is published in English in July, 2009, and the translator from Korean into English is Hong Ai Bai (it’s me, :-P ).

Here is the cover and copyright page, with the translator’s name.

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I am going to Yosemite

Posted by: redlove on: July 26, 2009

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Watch a video with me, “Experience Your Yosemite”.

It’s said, “in this wonderland, nature has been reduced to elemental, rock, ice, sky and water, this is Yosemite and it’s most basic. And visit here offers you the change of solitude and inspiration, as well as excitement and adventure.”

Anyone who wants to share your story at Yosemite and give me some travel tips?

I promised to myself that I would go to every natural scenery in wherever I go. Though I am always overwhelmed by the human creation and civilization, I am more intoxicated by the natural powers, in front of which we human beings are so small and every win and loss becomes trivial and meaningless.

Look at that hiker standing on the edge of Taft Point over Yosemite Valley and El Capitan. That’s you or me, or what we human beings look like in nature.

taftpoint-Yosemite Valley


The World’s Most Amazing Buildings

Posted by: redlove on: July 25, 2009

Dancing HouseLook through these slide shows, “The World’s Most Amazing Buildings”, and they are human brilliance.

1. The Melbourne Recital Center and Theater Company complex opened earlier this year and is helping to revitalize Melbourne’s gritty Southbank neighborhood. The exterior features a combination of angles, two-dimensional textures and glowing tubes. The walls inside the main performance space are covered with famous theater quotes that are illuminated when the stage is dark. The complex won the 2009 Victorian Architecture medal for best new building in Australia.

2. Nicknamed the Gherkin for its unique round, tapered shape, the office tower at 30 St Mary Axe in London’s financial district opened in 2004. Despite its appearance, there is only one piece of curved glass on the entire building, a lens-shaped piece that caps the very top. The tower reaches nearly 600 feet high, and its 40 stories house insurance companies and other financial businesses.

3. Known for designing grand venues from Spain to California, renowned Canadian-born architect Frank Gehry transformed a neo-Renaissance house in Prague to a structure known as the “Dancing House” upon its completion in 1996. It was initially named the Astaire & Rogers Building since it resembles a dancing couple. Even though some initially referred to it derisively as the Drunk House, this tipsy, tilting modern edifice is now considered a highlight of Prague’s modern architecture.

4. Esplanade – Theatres on the Bay in Singapore, opened in 2002, houses a concert hall and a theater beneath its distinctive spiked shells. Some have likened its spiky glass domes to the durian fruit or the eyes of a fly.

5. The Oslo Opera House in Norway, opened in 2008, appears to emerge out of the neighboring Oslofjord like an iceberg. The sloping marble roof is an open plaza for the public to enjoy and covers the 1,350-seat auditorium below. In 2009, the Opera House received the Mies van der Rohe award for contemporary architecture.

6. Another Gehry design is the Ray & Maria Stata Center, opened in 2004 at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology in Boston. Although the building’s aesthetics have been hotly debated, its teetering walls and swooping curves certainly leave an impression on visitors. One reviewer suggested that the structure is “a metaphor for the freedom, daring, and creativity of the research that’s supposed to occur inside it.”

7. The Seattle Central Library, designed by Dutch architect Rem Koolhaas and opened in 2004, is a beacon for bookworms in a city said to be one of the most literate in the U.S. Its steel-and-glass exterior is modern and futuristic, yet the interior includes some intimate reading spaces. Visitors can also catch a glimpse of Puget Sound from inside the 11-story downtown building.

8. The Hearst Tower in New York City, designed by British architect Norman Foster and opened in 2006, is the headquarters of the Hearst Publishing Company. The 46-story structure extends above the six-story building that housed the original Hearst headquarters that was completed in 1928. The triangular pattern of the tower’s exterior provides a sharp contrast to the stone façade of the original building at its base. It was the first skyscraper to break ground in New York City after September 11, 2001, and was the first “green” high-rise office building completed in the city.

9. The City of the Arts and the Sciences complex in Valencia, Spain, houses a science museum, theaters, performance halls, an aquarium and more. Built in a dried-out riverbed, its space-age educational and recreational structures were designed and developed by Spanish architect Santiago Calatrava as a present to his home city. Shown above is “L’Hemisfèric,” a dome opened in 1998 that includes, among other features, an Imax cinema.

10. New York City’s New Museum of Contemporary Art, opened in 2007 and named one of the seven architectural wonders by Conde Nast Traveler the following year, rises out of the gritty Bowery neighborhood in lower Manhattan like a layered wedding cake. It’s an appropriate venue for the contemporary works exhibited inside its walls.

11. The Chicago Spire, another Calatrava-designed structure, is under construction in the Windy City but has not yet been completed. The rendering above shows what it will look like if the remaining financing can be secured. The Spire would be located near the shores of Lake Michigan near Navy Pier and if completed, would be one of the tallest skyscrapers in the world at 2,000 feet and 150 stories. About 350 of the residential units have been pre-sold, including the penthouse to Ty Warner, CEO of Ty, Inc., manufacturer of Beanie Babies.

I’ve been to three of them, New Museum of Contemporary Art, Hearst Tower by Norman Foster and Stata Center at MIT by Frank Gehry. Still have long way to go.

Can you believe it?

Posted by: redlove on: July 24, 2009

Mum left today, and I saw her off at JFK airport. What will surprise you, and of course, me already, is I didn’t cry, which shocked me so much.

Can you believe it?

Before her departure, I could hardly imagine what a scene would be at the airport, and my friends also teased at me that I would cry my eyes out, or I would hardly see anything the next day with the swollen eyes.

It might be due to the wheelchair guy who took mum away at such a sudden that we even didn’t realize the departing time had come. Or it was because of my friend beside me, who distracted me from that emotion.

Actually I am more concerned about whether my heart is getting tougher with my aging, or whether, being away from family for too long time, I am losing that sentimental attachment to family tie?

I used to be shedding tears at the mere mention of my mum five years ago, and I was crying so hard outside my mum’s hospital cell when she was hit at the car accident ten years ago.

Now I don’t cry as much as I used to, even on some occasions when I thought I should have.

I don’t know whether it’s good or bad, but I am just a little confused how it happened.

A pleasant surprise is in store for you

Posted by: redlove on: July 21, 2009

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I was excited when I saw these words out of my fortune cookie.

I am clear that they are just some good words for anyone, but the readers will always understand its special meaning out of their concerns.

Still, I pretend it is some hint just for me, either from God, or heaven, or whoever up there.

Superstition? No. Good wishes? Yes.

I will wait, patiently, along with all those who concern me so much, believing it will definitely come soon.

hahaha…